I’m in bed with a guy and we’ve been talking about what we want to do in the next five years.
He’s like, “Yeah, we’re gonna go out and do a reality show.”
I’m like, Okay, cool.
We’ll do it.
We’re gonna do a show.
We’ve been doing it for a couple of years.
We get together and I do my thing, and he does his thing.
And then he gets to the end of the night and he comes up and says, “I’m gonna take off my suit.”
And I’m just like, No.
I’m not going to do that.
So he’s like…
Well, what if we go out together and he has a jacket on, and we’re in a hotel room, and I’m wearing a suit?
And he’s not.
He doesn’t even notice the jacket.
So I’m doing the best I can, but it’s still weird.
I can’t even talk to my girlfriend.
So what do I do?
I’m the weird one.
I just feel like it’s just a matter of time before the reality show is going to happen.
I know I’ve got some people I can call.
I don’t want to tell them I’m going to the hospital.
I’ll just be doing what I’m supposed to be doing, which is sleeping in my bed.
And I know there’s going to be some people that aren’t ready for it, and some people who are just going to get a kick out of it.
I get a little nervous, because you have no idea how this will go.
I remember the first time I heard about this, when I was 17.
I was on tour in Europe, and the whole tour was just about to start.
We were all in different cities.
We all had the same bus that we were all taking, and there were a lot of us.
And we all got on the bus and I was the only one that was in the back, and they were all like, Yeah, we can see you in the front seat.
And all of a sudden, there’s this guy that’s in the rear, and it just made me so nervous.
So, I’m sitting there in the bus, and everyone was like, I can see your back seat, and then I look down at my leg and I can barely see my arm.
And he was sitting in the passenger seat next to me.
And that’s when I realized what this meant.
I had this little leg that was almost like a ball.
I would have a leg that I was in a band, or something.
And this guy was sitting next to us, and when he said he could see my leg, I had no idea what was going on.
I thought he was just going crazy.
And so I’m standing there with my legs like, Oh, my God.
I have no clue what’s going on, but then the next thing I know, I was like: Okay, well, what are you doing?
I was freaking out.
So that was my first exposure to what it’s like to be in the middle of a reality television show.
It’s not like you’re walking around in the mall, like, Hey, this is my life.
You’re doing a reality TV show.
So we had to go out of our comfort zone.
And you have to go with the flow.
I didn’t even know what to expect, because we all just have to be on our toes.
I’ve always been very grounded.
So when it comes to this, it’s very much like my life in general.
So it’s something that I’m really looking forward to.
I feel like the first few days I got to the studio, I just wanted to just chill out and get in the zone.
I felt like I had to get away from that whole reality show thing, but I got a little carried away.
So once the show was done, I took it off.
I wasn’t sure if it was going to last.
But then I got back to my house and I started putting together my wardrobe.
So now it’s my wardrobe, and my boyfriend has been super supportive.
I haven’t seen him since the show started.
It was really, really good.
It helped me to feel a little more grounded.
Now, I have this beautiful wardrobe that I’ve been working on since I was 15 years old.
I kind of feel like I’m putting it together, but in the right direction.